Ramadhan, the one we await for

Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuh

Alhamdulillah, soon it is Ramadhan, the month that has been await. The month of Rahmah, the month to synergize back Ibadah. Not that it means we can't do it any other month, but there is always something special about Ramadhan. It is always so motivating, and a great month for Hijrah as well. I remember wearing hijab full time on one of the Ramadhan we had in UK. Apparently, it was easier to put on the Hijab during those month at that time since all my other muslim friends has the trend of wearing Hijab during Ramadhan. After Ramadhan I remain with Hijab and I did get questioned why, by some of my friends. We were young still at that time, 13. So I guess those who ask hasn't yet understand why Hijab is so important. And is not just to be worn in Ramadhan. I guess the fact that people has put Ramadhan as the month that you have to do more Ibadah has put them to wear Hijab during those month as well. But of course we hope that we could also extend that ibadah as routine as well.

This year with full heart, I do hope I could manage better. I could do more. I could try and do more Ibadah and fully utilize the moments of Ramadhan and really hope that it last a life even way after this Ramadhan. I hope this year I give myself a little push. For I love Allah. For I love Him so much, why couldn't I do it. There is absolutely no reason. It is us who are very weak and yet demand a lot from Him. It is Him who is full of love and merciful. Ya Allah, give us strength, give us the courage. Ya Allah guide us and bring us closer to you.

InsyaAllah, may this Ramadhan be a great month for all of us Muslims. Wishing you the best in planning your Ibadah, InsyaAllah..

Till then,
Wassalam.
Ramadhan Mubarak.

Amira

Allah's Trial and Qada' and Qadar.

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabaraktuh.

July has been quite a heavy month. Although it has not been even past half month just yet, lots of things happen.

Early this month I got a sad news from my family about my Grandfather, TokWe's accident and death.  I burst into tears right after the news came in on the phone while I was in the office. I missed him. And would definitely find time to see him if I ever got back to Malaysia. But Allah's Qada' and Qadar are written and definite. We can only plan, and Allah is the one who make do. I got better as soon as I thought about all the good things TokWe has gone through and how much he will be missed by all of us. He has been one of the most important people in our family and extended families. He will by most try his best to be at all of the important day of our live. My wedding, Asyraf's Aqiqah, and too much to list. He will surely be missed.
Al-fatihah. May Allah forgive him and place him with all Muslims in Rahmah.


In the same week, Faiz got into a small accident. There goes our car. It is far too expensive to get it repaired here. More than the car's worth. Therefore, we had to buy a new one. Despite of the small budget we have, we had to buy one as soon because it is so needed. Especially when I have little one around. It is so much better to have our own car.


Last Sunday - 8 July,
Asyraf suddenly had a fever. Faiz was not around. He had gone fishing that very early morning. That early morning Asyraf was just fine. I realized he suddenly got a bit too warm after he was playing in the sunlight in our home. I guess he was getting a bit too warm. But my bad was I didn't take his sweater off. I figured it was quite chilly despite the sun being in. I got his medicine and food ready. I put him a cool fever patch on the head. While I was feeding him, he got into a fit. He didn't response to me, I was totally scared. I picked him up and started dialing numbers on my phone. I don't know what to do. I waited for my friend to come while picking him up and running around totally panicking. His mouth was turning blue, and I still didn't know what to do. He throw up and he regain back his pink lips. I splashes some water on him, and he seems to be getting better then. I was scared. Still panicked. My friend, kak Miza arrived. I gave him to her and got things ready to the hospital. He was so weak and was shivering in the car. He slowly regain his conscious, but he was still weak. It is so sad seeing him like that. I was traumatised too with the whole incident.

Next time I know. It was a lesson to learn. He seems to be better today. Alhamdulillah. His fever are coming down already. We are to go to Melbourne tomorrow morning till Sunday. Hopefully he'll be okay. 


Till then,


Just an update to my journal of life,


Wassalam,
Amira